Schizoaffective disorder

I appreciate all the kind words from everyone. I debated whether I should make this thread as there isn't anything any of you can do about it, so I thought what's the point.

I believe I've had this for around at least 5 years, if not more, but I hadn't heard any voices in my head till August of this year. I've drank my fair share of alcoholin my life, and think I simply masked the problem.

I've changed medications twice, and refuse to stop till my voices are gone. I have vivid memories of things that did not happen. It honestly makes me question all of my memories. I know what happened at my cabin 2 years ago was real, but now can see a reason as to why I was so unreasonable.

I feel like it's a fight in my brain between me and my voices. I can talk with them about almost anything, but while I toss water balloons at them they're dropping bombs, waiting for a time to advance.

I try to have fun with it, but I know it's a serious medical issue.

Thank you all again for the support.