I Feel Fucking Crazy(thread edit)

I dont always shun these types of experiences personally. I know they are so difficult to manage. But the emotions let us know we are human. Many are so broken they just feel suffering and sorrow. Cold there entire lives. The blessing is that these go away for you. Sometimes we just have to embrace the impact of attacks like these. And let them make us better people. 

I know for me without some of the things i deal with i would have never found meditation. And i used to only meditate when they happened. But now im into it daily. Every night. 

I used to judge spoken word meditation. Id say things like "Listen to this dumb bitch thinking she is so fucking spiritual...probably a fraud" "No way will i ever listen to this and try it"

Until one day years ago when i was listening to an older spoken word meditation and i just started to weep. It had been so long since i had broken down emotionally like that. Now i dont judge it. I know many of these men and women who write these do it for us. Because they too were broken at some point. And thats really all life is anyways? Overcoming things and helping others in their time of need? 


This sort of thing may help you. But i understand if you think its cheesy as fuck. lol

This is just some hormonal shit that will go away as soon as I start bleeding.


It fucking sucks while going through it, but I know this will end in a few days. I like this better than my actual mental disorders. This one sucks...but at least I know it’s gonna scram and when.

Do whatever is therapeutic that helps you. Walks. music. yoga. arguing on the internet. Reading.

Hormones are wild.

Do you know much about PMDD? Some docs don’t think it actually exists, but I know it does. I pay attention to my cycles closely and because of that I was able to describe to my doctor exactly when and what happened in relation to my periods. Her knowledge saved me from monthly trauma. My first marriage didn’t survive it because I didn’t get it. I do now and it’s better knowing what’s happening. Makes the insanity feel less insane.