Not in the Best Place

This has been a tough year so far. First we found out that our mom had breast cancer. She's only 64 and just retired. That sucked, but it's beatable. Then we found out that it had spread to her bones. That sucks a lot more. Much harder to beat. So we're all fighting alongside her now...

Then this COVID-19 shit starts. It makes me worry about my mom even more, because she's at risk due to the cancer and the treatments. I got a cough this weekend, and while I'm not symptomatic of coronavirus, I need to be careful because of my mom, and my kids (3.5 and 1.5). Now tonight, my son starts hacking up a storm, and he wakes up crying every 20 minutes. Again, not symptomatic of coronavirus, but more likely Croup. If his breathing gets worse, we'll have to take him to the ER, where catching COVID-19 is much more likely, and wait times will be insane due to the pandemic. Then we need to deal with looking after the kids if they can't go to daycare, but my wife works in microbiology at the university, and is likely to start working extra shifts at the provincial lab running COVID-19 tests because she used to work there and they are terrible understaffed. 

My mom, dad and brother (Jin) are our biggest/best resource when we need help with the kids, but with mom in the place she is, it's tough for either dad or Jin to expose themselves to our illness when they are trying to protect mom from getting anything in their house.

I'm also stressed about my work situation then, because my bosses aren't big on working from home. They are letting me right now, but don't like it. And there is a new position that is opening up right away that I'm applying for. Would be pretty shitty if I applied for a job right after the bosses are annoyed at having to "accommodate" my schedule.

Oh ya, and one of my closest/best friends (33 years old) just found out today that he's got cancer in his bowels. Fuck 2020 so far. I'm struggling a bit to deal with this all right now.