Next thing i know my buddies from vietnam are all hiding with Lige in my garage with my new 2023 Toyota Camry! (Elevate Your Everyday!)
Come back inside and my dead dog is alive and barking and i literally cry real tears from my own eyes and realize they arent tears, they are diamonds. My dead dog has been putting in work as a magician and it shows.
I spent it with my mom stepdad and sister. A hateful little group. Stepdad is ok. My sister has been brainwashing my mom into pushing me and my 2 bros out. So when they are together they try and team attack me with shame. Mental illness stuff. I painted a pretty strong picture of what they should stop doing last night. Or the price will be costly. In fact this past year has been a tough go working with my therapist on this. I am really happy...and doing so much better now...but i still want to kill bullies and shitty people. Especially my family. Im sorry to admit that. But they need to know the shame checks they are trying to deposit in my mind... are starting to bounce. Im concerned they will end up paying the overdraft fees. I just need to make it to Tuesday. My sister will leave and my mom will at least go back to being scared of me. And that keeps her quiet. Then she leaves on the 6th of Dec. And the monster goes back deep inside me. Been this way since i was a kid.
My mom used to offer me money to kill the neighbors animals that annoyed her. I had a dark upbringing. My stepbrother sexually assaulted me when i was 8 and he was 10. I kept that a secret up until around 2 weeks ago. Therapist first. My 2 brothers. Ill likely never say anything to the rest of the family. It would kill my step dad if he knew this.
So what i got for Thanksgiving is a resentment. And my resentments if bad enough...trigger the maniac. I literally growled in front of them last night. Like a beat dog. lol